sem break...

such feeling of emptiness conquers my spirit as my three-week vacation is in its peak...yesterday i just came from UST as we were asked to for our clearance..thank God, I passed all my courses...yet the feeling of excitement and fear reach my nerves as I think about my grades this semester..I don't know what shall be my average... I hope its just fine.. am now at an internet cafe where I was suppose to view my grades but I was not that lucky because the grades were not yet available.. as these people beside me continues to shout at each other, I still continue to trace my thoughts...this sem break, I had many things finished and left undone...I had a short relationship with the cousin of my dear brother's want-to-be girlfriend.. But alas! I was not that decided to enter such relationship... Now I am damn single... whooh! I am now again free... just as I was before...

now I continue to search for the unknown and quest for the unrevealed... my grades? I hope their fine... my life? ....

my life... as I am at a state of confusion and chaos.. I am still questioning myself on certain things.. my self-worth counts as the first among these many unanswered questions... as I am exposed to such things and situations in everyday, i am bounded to question my whole being.. my personality..my capabilities... my achievements.. I don't know when and where did this started but all I know is, I am now searching...

at a stage of my life that is crucial, I am now slowly searching for answers for my questions... Yes, I almost committed suicide the other night... but thank God, I didn't.. I thought I was gonna die that evening.. but thanks to the Otap.. I was awakened and uplifted..

now i am hear waiting for the fruits of my labor last semester... but i think that shall take me until tomorrow for the grades are not yet posted...

so lon..until then.. i have a lot things to share but my money prevents me from doing so.. until i get my grades.. adios!